Today would have been Jerad’s 32nd birthday. Last night, as I was on my way to go see a friend I worked with at Disneyland (actually my favorite trainee), I glanced at my phone to see that it was helpfully reminding me that today was Jerad’s birthday.
It’s odd. Last night was so wonderful- talking to people that I’d really only last seen at Jerad’s memorial, and it felt as though no time had passed. So even though I’d been nervous about how the night would go… it was wonderful.
I don’t have much more to say. Just that today has been a definite low, from feeling depressed enough that I ate a slice of pizza knowing I’d pay for it later, to just wanting to sleep all day. Tomorrow will be better, I just have to get through today. Hopefully without giving in to more gluten. Ugh.