Hard to pick just one.

by , under Mom, personal

Yesterday was a rough day for a multitude of reasons. First and foremost, the boys decided to be difficult. The Oldest Kidlet wanted to sit down to do his homework, but wasn’t focusing on anything. This isn’t entirely new, minimum days at school tend to be rough on all of us. I get tired constantly running around, and the Oldest Kidlet gets thrown off by having one less hour of school.

That’s right, when most kids are excited about that hour less of school, he doesn’t know what to do with himself. It took a lot of coaxing and an extra hour for us to get through our homework. Just in case you think it was because we just got back to school, we did the same amount of work the day before in half the time.

As if that wasn’t enough to make my day rough, I spent yesterday reading links on building successful social media brands and mostly I walked away feeling like I’m failing in who I am.

I’m one person. I’m a mom, a geek and a writer. Is it weird that I try to be all these things in one blog, or is it just too scattered to keep interest? Every single story I read said that it’s just too much for one site.

I keep trying to tell myself that this is just my own anxiety at work, which is a problem I have. So realistically, I can be me. It’s my blog after all. I am who I am, and I need to accept it.

I’ve never been a person with one main interest. In high school I either wanted to be an actress or a coroner. In college, it shifted to computer programming or theater- though theater dropped away when I realized every theater degree needed me to spend all my free time crewing shows instead of working at my job.

Yes, I’m a mom. But I’m a writer and a social media junkie. I cook, too, and all that’s here. I’m also dealing with social anxiety, but that’s all here too as well. So tell me… who else here has a hard time picking one thing to be when they grow up?

  • That’s my girl! 

  • Hey, I even managed to rebrand myself as a social media junkie.  I’m not sure I’ve used that anywhere on this blog before.

  • Rene

    Whitney, I’m still trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. I know what you mean. My problem, if you want to call it a problem, is that I lose interest right away, get bored. I need something to keep me going. Like When I was a Disney, I didn’t get bored because I was always moving around, but when I was working at another film permit company, driving to different cities collecting and delievering permits, i got bored. Probably becuase I spent my day in the car all the time. Now I work for someone new and it’s great, but I don’t think it’s my calling. I am exicited about the Radio Show becuase it’s a hobby, I started a blog about film review, but realized, I don’t get out enough to review films. so revamping that site. I want to be in film, but growing up, I went from being a Civil Engineer, to Radio Broadcaster, to Actor, to Business Major, Fire Fighter to Pilot, so My mind has changed, I know I know what to be in the entertainment industry but what exactly I’m not sure and I’m 33. I’ve love to tell stories, but I can’t sit down and write them, I just can write ideas to talk about my ideas, but it’s hard for me to sit down and script it out or write it out. I know I’m rambling again…sorry…hope all is well

  • Jillian Hanes

    Me… I find that I lose interest in all of the singular blogs I read. I happen to enjoy yours because it is about you; a whole person. However, I am a lot like you and that makes me a biased judge.

  • I know how that is, all of it.  I did temp work and would fill up a notebook with story on my breaks and lunch.  It poured out of me.  I started working full time in advertising, and while it slowed… I still worked at it.

    Then I stopped.  I had no time.  And getting back into it has been rough.  It’s taken me two years to even establish some sort of routine- people say it’s easy, but it takes a lot of routine and structure.  Ever read the War of Art?

  • Thank you!  It means a lot- I think I’ve decided that anyone who tells you to be just one thing is a boring person.