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January 14, 2011

What Might Have Been and What Is.

Today has been a mixed bag for me. I’ve been sick, and last night as I drifted off, I realized that today would have been the day that Jerad and I were supposed to go to Glen Ivy to celebrate my birthday and his half birthday. Usually we would go closer to the actual date, but because of school, he wanted to move it up a little. In some ways I wish I’d kept my appointments- because I could sure use a massage. I admit, I’m doing much better than most people expect of me. Which makes me feel guilty.…

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December 31, 2010

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011.

(Gimme the ball, gimme the ball, gimme the ball, yeah! Oops. Random Chorus Line flash there. Sorry! At least now you all know what inspired the title -W) 2010. What a year. I made some resolutions, most of which promptly went out the window. Though my main resolution, which was Be Fabulous, did remain… and I am fabulous. I might be a mom in a minivan, but I will still rock my skinny jeans, thigh high boots and an inappropriately smokey eye. Because that’s me. A lot happened. We went on trips… I went to Glen Ivy with Jerad in…

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December 27, 2010

Not the Christmas I Expected.

Christmas was a day I was both looking forward to and dreading. Not because of family I didn’t want to spend time with, or because I dislike the holiday. I love my family, and love Christmas. But I’ve been followed by a lingering depression following Jerad’s death, and especially lately I’ve had more down moments than I was expecting. So I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. The morning began early, as one might expect. I opened my eyes to find that my oldest son was wide awake. “It’s Christmas,” he whispered. “Let’s wake up [Little Kidlet].” I always…

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December 18, 2010

Vent: Watch the Drinking, okay?

With the holiday season in full swing, I’ve seen posts and tweets from people saying that they’re going to drink to get through it all. And friends talking about spending the weekend drunk, or bragging about how much they drank at a party. It makes me angry. It makes me want to shake them. I’ve never been much of a drinker anyways, but right now… alcohol is the last thing I want crossing my lips. Why? My best friend’s death was basically caused by alcohol. While obviously, this is a private matter, I’m sharing this because I think it’s important…

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December 14, 2010

Grief is weird.

Yesterday was a lovely memorial for Jerad at a park at an area overlooking a lake. With the exception of everyone singing ‘Amazing Grace’ I’m sure it would have been just what he would have liked. (And about Amazing Grace, Jerad- while we were remembering you, the song was meant to help those of us who believe in God. That’s all, no disrespect intended. These things are meant for those of us left behind. To everyone else, yeah, I addressed part of my blog to him.) I saw lots of familiar faces, and wish I’d been seeing them under different…

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December 9, 2010

The Elephant in the Room

I haven’t blogged since Friday. I was busy this weekend with the oldest kidlet’s birthday party, then doctor appointments and a family photo shoot… and then something happened. Something so jarring that I haven’t been able to really put the words to paper (so to speak). My best friend Jerad died. Jerad was going to come to the birthday party, but he’d decided not to come since he was sick. I got a message from his mother on Tuesday morning asking if I’d heard from him, and I called her to let her know. We were both concerned- since it…

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August 10, 2010

Return of Glen Ivy

Yes, I know that grammatically it should be “Return to Glen Ivy,” but as my previous post about Glen Ivy was titled “The Spa Day Strikes Back,” I couldn’t resist continuing the Star Wars theme. As I mentioned six months ago, I go to Glen Ivy twice a year with my best friend. This was our third trip to Glen Ivy together, and our third trip using the cabanas. For us, the cabanas are a must. Not only do you have your cabana to keep your things, and the concierge service, but they keep an eye on your appointment times.…