Posts Tagged With: jerad

Posted in jerad, personal, Pirate
December 8, 2015

Blindsided by grief. Thanks Facebook.

I’ve written a lot about grief- dealing with the sudden death of my best friend Jerad. (Technically, he was my Rejershnivit – we made up a word because it was impossible to pin down what we were to each other. Platonic soulmates is close) I have a habit in the morning. A routine, to be precise. I go through my email to delete the junk and flag important things to look at. Then I open my Facebook app to see what I’ve posted in years past. It helps me wake up, considering I’m not a morning person. The On This…

Posted in personal
June 14, 2013

Hit from behind.

Earlier this week, I was browsing my Tumblr dash, and came across this post: And if you look at the tags on the bottom, you’ll see what happened. I read it, and realized that I had a friend that was a soulmate. Someone who got me to the very core, who I didn’t have to say much of anything to- but did. We chatted constantly. Jerad. And while I have a lot of wonderful new friends, there’s still the hole that he left in my life. It’s not as big as it used to be- so many other things used…

June 4, 2013

The Doctor: Eleven, Twelve.

Over the weekend it was announced that Matt Smith would be leaving Doctor Who, and while I can’t say that I’m surprised (he has had a long run), I am both happy and sad. Happy that Matt Smith’s career has taken off (because Doctor Who has proved how immensely talented he is), and sad because he was my first Doctor. That isn’t quite true. I’d caught an episode or two of Nine and Ten, but hadn’t really started watching the show. I started with him and was immediately taken in by the ancient man who sometimes acted like an 5…

Posted in personal, Pirate
December 6, 2012

Missing the Nickelking.

As I mentioned yesterday, it’s been 2 years (exactly) since Jerad passed away. For those new here, Jerad was my best friend. He was the person I would talk to about everything, endlessly- usually online. He used to give nickels to special people in his lives (myself included)- and online, he went by Nickelking. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss him. I miss him terribly. I can’t even turn to the internet for some distraction either. This week I saw someone advertising the Eleventh Doctor’s tweed coat, and I found myself swallowed up by grief. I still…

Posted in personal
July 24, 2012

8 years!

Today’s my anniversary. 8 years ago, I was lucky enough to be marrying a man I loved deeply then, but even more-so now. We had a lovely ceremony at a building that’s no longer accessible. I would talk about it more, but it’s not available as a venue anymore, since it was bought by Scientologists (I am not making that up). The building was an art deco affair in Santa Ana, with an old elevator, as well as a theater. We used the theater for both the wedding and the reception. Chairs were set up for the wedding, and after…

Posted in personal
June 6, 2012


Some things in life I just can’t blog about, even though I feel like I need to for therapeutic reasons. Something happened to someone in my life. That’s about as much as I can say without invading their privacy. But I will say that it involved alcohol. I have mixed feelings about alcohol. I don’t really drink much these days. Admittedly, the only time I really drank was when it wasn’t legal for me to do so- and even then, I drank at home. By the time it was legal, I was a drink on special occasions type of girl.…

Posted in personal
December 7, 2011

A year ago.

A year ago, the world fell out from underneath me. You see, a year ago I found out that my best friend died (on the day before). It’s been a strange year. One filled with sadness and a lot of anger. A lot. I’m not an angry person, but this had me shouting to the skies because I was so mad. I’m still angry, but I suppose a part of me always will be. There is no making sense of it, that much I know. Jerad was a very private person, and while I was one of the closest people…

Posted in Mom, personal
March 6, 2011


Earlier this week I freaked out friends and family by talking about life changes vaguely in the same post as me being depressed over the loss of Jerad. I mentioned I wasn’t quite ready to talk about some of these changes, but I am ready to talk about one of them now. I know I’ve mentioned that we’ve been gearing up for the Oldest Kidlet to go to kindergarten. We’d signed up for a tour of his school (the private Church based school that his dad and uncles went to), and were gearing up for their aggressive kindergarten program… when…

Posted in jerad, personal
March 1, 2011

Struggling to find words.

There are so many things I wish I could talk about. We’ve had some big changes in our life, and I’m still waiting for some time to pass before I can talk about them. (Before anyone leaps to conclusions, no, I’m not pregnant) However, in the rest of my life I am struggling to find words. I sit down to write blog posts about mundane things, and suddenly the words disappear as though one of my kids is stealthily hitting the delete button. Don’t even get me started on my creative writing. I haven’t been able to get much of…

Posted in jerad, politics
February 2, 2011

Quick thoughts on the ACA repeal attempt.

I was going to post at length about the Affordable Care Act, but I’ll just sum it up with this: Don’t repeal it. Republicans say it’s because it isn’t Constitutional, but really- they’re trying to protect insurance company and pharmaceutical profits, because insurance companies and pharmaceuticals make huge donations to campaigns. Largely so that their interests are protected. If someone says that it’s anti-American to say that a company shouldn’t be able to turn a profit, nobody’s saying that they can’t make a profit. The US is the only country in the first world tier of countries that doesn’t limit…